My Life Is A Gunshot

Noise musician Joke Lanz has a loyal fan base And a dreadful image his stage performances see him taking a beating emitting deafening screams or exhausting himself till the blood flows For the privilege he denies himself all luxury in his personal life How does someone end up living this way This movie explores the life a sensitive artist haunted for decades by a trauma when he was 12 his father shot himself on the roof of their house Joke has been trying to come to terms with it ever since This also affects his own role as a father which is equally fraught with problems for him The shock of becoming a father himself following the birth of his son became the trigger for his lifes project Sudden Infant in which he has involved his son Céleste now an adult since his earliest childhood This is a movie about fathers sons and what happens when traumatized sons become fathers And become musicians whose art is in some measure a form of selftherapy